Tomorrow is Lent and I’m still thinking about what I want to “give up” or challenge myself with.
I’m not the most religious person in the world, but I consider myself spiritual and a Catholic, so Lent is a way for me to connect with my spirituality, with God, and myself.
Usually I’d just give up some food that is difficult for me. I’ve given up meat, sweets, chocolate, and cheese in the past, but this year I don’t want to focus on food.
I want to focus on my health and being more positive. So this year I’m “giving up” being negative - saying negative things about others and mainly saying negative things about myself.
Many people have their opinions on the Catholic church and that’s fine. Your opinion is your opinion. But what I have always taken away after Mass is to be good to people. And I want to focus on that this Lent.
But really, I want to focus on myself - being more loving to me. In the past few months, my mind has been on a lot of things - my grandmother, my mother, My father, my boyfriend, my sister, my cousins, my friends, my work - and I just haven’t had time to really focus on me.
And that’s a struggle for me - a challenge, helping myself. It’s hard to stand up for what I want, it’s hard for me to be honest about how I’m feeling, it’s hard for me to say I’m beautiful.
This Lent, my goal is to give up being negative - to people, but mainly to myself. I don’t have a way of measuring whether I did this or what happens if I say something negative about me or someone. But I don’t think I want to - I want this experience to be a learning and growing one, and understanding that it’s ok to make mistakes and have flaws.
This post may just be me rambling, but it’s helping me. I’m already working towards bettering myself mentally - writing this post and posting it is the first step to loving myself.